Now I cannot say I have mastered travelling alone, I have taken 6 solo plane trips and only 1 truly solo adventure that lasted 3 days. However, it really tested my set ideas on my mental health and my body. I spent the last year having panic attacks in lectures, crying when I ate food and having the wonderful diagnosis of both IBS and vaginismus. In my head, my body was weak and fragile. However, after 6 weeks of CBT and some introspection, I decided it was time to challenge this idea that I was this “petal” of a human being. It was time to test if I would crumble at the first sign of nausea, anxiety, or pain. What better way to do that than go 897.2 miles away (yes I did check) to Berlin, Germany for a 3-day excursion.
Over the past few months, I have found a few recipes over the internet (credited below) and have been putting them to the test, especially in terms of making them gluten and dairy free. A simple one, but quite easy to mess up, is Muesli. There are so many variations of this, each one just a beautiful as the next. (Unless, you put raisins in them. Ew.) As there are so many recipes out there, it can be difficult to find out which one is right for you, so I will show you how I make my gluten-free muesli from a combination of two lovely recipes. While also explaining the pitfalls to watch out for!
As dramatic as the title sounds, going out in public can feel like a daunting task when you have IBS, anxiety, or both! There is the constant fear that you won’t be prepared for the worst case scenario. What if I have a panic attack? What if I need to go to the bathroom? What if I stress myself out so much I simply melt myself out of existence? There’s no shame in these ‘what if’ questions, no matter how unrealistic, and while I am on the journey to stop asking them, in the meantime, I built myself a kit so I always have an answer.
A Food Guide to Calming Anxiety Symptoms
The foods that are mentioned in this post are snacks and small meals that one can quickly grab in a supermarket to fill up. They are quick, with few ingredients, and have provided me with the rare pleasure of eating without anxiety. To me, eating these foods is a form of self-care, they help me calm down, and not obsess about what I am putting in my body. There is so little that can go wrong, even at my most anxious, I cannot panic about these foods.
How can someone be scared of food? It is essential for survival. Being scared of a murderer makes sense, if he finds you, he is going to kill you. Being scared of falling makes sense, if you fall, it’s going to hurt. Food, however, has no emotions, it is not a malicious being ,intent on killing me. The chances of dying from food poisoning are literally, 3,000,000 to 1. You have a higher chance of dying via falling out of bed, than eating food.