I have spent the past year working on feeling better. I muddled my way through the last year of university and was rewarded for my hard work with a first class. I managed to surpass the CBT waitlist, and get a (near) immediate start on therapy. Finally, I was leaving limbo, where I had been trapped in for months. Why then, did the realisation that I might actually be getting better and feeling happier, fill me with the utmost dread. I felt on edge through the whole day, preparing my body for something to ruin my day, to come crashing in to remind me that I was not really happy.
In my head, preparing for a worst-case scenario event seems completely logical. Why end up in a situation unprepared? What’s the harm in having a Mary Poppinsesque bag (besides the fact in real life, its insanely heavy)? I get a great sense of relief when I am prepared, such as when I bring my lunch to work or I brought my charger on a night out with my friends. However, it is never stops there. I can’t just have one backup plan; I need a backup plan for my backup plan. No matter how unlikely the event will be, I need to be ready. Do you start to see the issue?
This has a name, it is known as Catastrophizing, and it is unbelievably exhausting.
Over the past few months, I have found a few recipes over the internet (credited below) and have been putting them to the test, especially in terms of making them gluten and dairy free. A simple one, but quite easy to mess up, is Muesli. There are so many variations of this, each one just a beautiful as the next. (Unless, you put raisins in them. Ew.) As there are so many recipes out there, it can be difficult to find out which one is right for you, so I will show you how I make my gluten-free muesli from a combination of two lovely recipes. While also explaining the pitfalls to watch out for!
As dramatic as the title sounds, going out in public can feel like a daunting task when you have IBS, anxiety, or both! There is the constant fear that you won’t be prepared for the worst case scenario. What if I have a panic attack? What if I need to go to the bathroom? What if I stress myself out so much I simply melt myself out of existence? There’s no shame in these ‘what if’ questions, no matter how unrealistic, and while I am on the journey to stop asking them, in the meantime, I built myself a kit so I always have an answer.
A Food Guide to Calming Anxiety Symptoms
The foods that are mentioned in this post are snacks and small meals that one can quickly grab in a supermarket to fill up. They are quick, with few ingredients, and have provided me with the rare pleasure of eating without anxiety. To me, eating these foods is a form of self-care, they help me calm down, and not obsess about what I am putting in my body. There is so little that can go wrong, even at my most anxious, I cannot panic about these foods.
How can someone be scared of food? It is essential for survival. Being scared of a murderer makes sense, if he finds you, he is going to kill you. Being scared of falling makes sense, if you fall, it’s going to hurt. Food, however, has no emotions, it is not a malicious being ,intent on killing me. The chances of dying from food poisoning are literally, 3,000,000 to 1. You have a higher chance of dying via falling out of bed, than eating food.
What is a Mental Health Food Blog? This is a blog that I have created that focuses on how my anxiety and food have intertwined since the development of irritable bowel syndrome. Food anxiety has become a real issue for me, and I sometimes struggle, in my current social circle, to find people who feel … Continue reading A Mental Health Food Blog